Blargh

I hate it that I how I feel bad after I do something I know I should just move on I hate myself I really hate myself I hate myself. why cant I just apologize why is my memory blurred about what others do to my but it burns when I do something to them I think she said it first I forgot she did this why do I NOT REMEMBER WHAT REALLY HAPPENED I WANT TO APOLOGIZE But when I see her I become full of hate.