My Rant is:
depressed/bored/idk
other
i feel bad right now
I feel like i have no direction in life, even though thats not true. So damn stressed over all these AP courses, even though I still get honors, I dont know how many more years of "wake up tired as hell -> school -> HW -> eat the same fucking dinner every day -> spend rest of time on computer -> get in bed at 9, fall asleep at 12" I can take into college.
I hate my family. My little sister is an oversensitive little bitch who cries if I make eye contact with her, and my parents come running, ready to scold and yell at me. I dont blame my sister though. my parents have fucking babied her all through her damn life, and she cannot do SHIT for herself. every day she comes home complaining about how some whore was mean to her and how my sis didn't do anything because she was too scared. She cannot IMAGINE a world without Mom and Dad protecting their little sensitive crybaby. So whenever my sister is feeling bored, all she has to do is cry with me in a 30 foot radius, and i'm screwed. My mom is just as sensitive. all she fucking cares about is the words you use; arguments usually end up in semantics. I seriously don't know what the hell she'll do the day I stop saying such *terrible words* like 'stupid', because other than picking at vocabulary, she never seems to have any argument. My dad is like that too, but with yelling. "yelling" actually. Once he sees that he's wrong, he'll say some really stupid-ass crap to make you raise your voice above tiny whispers, so he can use his "STOP YELLING" technique. It's sad, funny, and enraging at the same time when you think "Ha! yes, now he HAS to accept that i'm right for once, as I proved my point logically and calmly", only to be met with "STOP YELLING". he is so under appreciative too. COUNTLESS times, I come home with yet another slew of "99th percentile in standardized math and reading test #509645" for him to ignore, only to be met with shock and disgust when I get a fucking B. going to a Charter school ranked in the top 100 in the nation with 3 AP courses and 3.8 GPA isn't enough I guess.
I hate how I have no hobbies, and I suck at every sport but except biking (and its been too cold for the past 5 fucking months to go biking) and how i'm so damn bored on the weekends so I end up playing video games all day.
Lastly, i hate being so angry and cynical all the time. ever since i hit puberty 5 years ago, i've become more hateful of the average human being. I wasn't ever like this before, it just came on all of a sudden, and now, I cannot go a damn quarter hour without having to point out how stupid someone is being and why. For example, while taking a break from writing this rant, I get on FB and the first thing I see is one of those fucking "SHARE DIS AND GIV DIS SICK ND DYING CHILD A CURE FOR HIS DISEASE" posts, with 9999 likes and 48937598345 shares. Don't you stupid fucks know those are complete scams? jesus christ, I often wish I was one of the typical retarded sheep in society.
I dont have the will to start or finish anything, I dont people in general (minus my friends), I have no appetite, I don't have any hobbies, I'm depressed and bored.
/rant
Comments
or you can take my stance and get so pissed off that you really feel like fixing something. go out and fill a pothole or something idk. it's a lot more productive and at the end of the day you actually feel somewhat accomplished.
just don't think about how our government is over spending like crazy because nobody in the senate ever learned something called restraint when they were kids. or how our infrastructure is failing and nobody is taking a stance on fixing it except the people who are getting laid off who's job it was to fix the infrastructure.
and don't think about the fact that so many people are so busy thinking about sex and social status that they don't even begin to try to comprehend the consequences of maxing out all their credit cards in one month. or that so many people are soo shallow that our culture is slowly being rebuilt into something that would hinder responsibility rather than promote it.
don't worry about the fact that more than 70% of Americans are getting more from the government then what they are paying in taxes.
and certainly don't think about the fact that so many people are stupid enough to go straight to making kids after getting married. and finally by all means do not even begin to think about the fact that conventional science will never accept that there might be a God not because it's absurd but because as much as they try to deny it they are human and thus biased.
you're beyond smart, you have a new responsibility in life that nobody else around you does. when everyone else is thinking about the next day it's going to be your job to think about the next year. when everyone else is reading the writing it's your job to look for what's been written underneath the writing. finally your biggest responsibility is that you have no excuse whatsoever for failing because you are literally too smart not to comprehend the full extent of your actions.
in my own personal experience i would have cracked by now if i had not found God or someone willing to help me through all of this crap so I suggest you find someone just as smart to be your significant other. otherwise your going to find yourself with a lot more pain then what's needed. you should be happy someone like me who's "been there" is here to help you.