Series of bad relationships

I have had to bottle up some emotions and frustration, but it keeps leaking out. It leaks out in my conversations with people and, god help me, on facebook. So, I figure I'll come hear and rant in hopes of letting it all out so that I can move on.

I ended a 5 year relationship last spring. She was good to me, but lied and cheated. The resentment slowly grew throughout our time together to the point where we really hated each other and it was damaging to our well being. I ended the relationship as we grew apart. She had begun dating another person and I was preparing to be single as well. I have a temper. and I said and did a lot of things I regret, but she was no saint either. We both were with other people immediately after the break up. Her relationship has lasted to this day, and I have been through several flings, short relationships, and one-nighters.

Her response was to turn her friends against me. They have even gone so far as to take significant effort to damage my reputation with new people that I was meeting. She had a lot of very personal information regarding me and my weaknesses. Vicious, toxic people have used this information to damage me.

I was seduced by an older woman within the new groups, and in my weak state, began to become attached to her. She is damaged goods and her negativity and lack of self esteem was slowly being redirected upon me. A psychic fucking vampire. I ended that relationship, and lo and behold, she also turned all of her friends against me by playing the victim. So this creates a compounded situation where some genuinely fucked up people (many are alcoholics, drug users, etc...) have a large amount of negative information about me.

The negativity resonated around, and instigated difficult situations. I failed to handle many of these situations well, and things became worse to the point where I had a breakdown. Now, the breakdown was embarassing, but no one was harmed or hurt. I really just acted very strangely and told some people about my thoughts, many of which were highly paranoid. I trusted the wrong people during this period and a couple of them have further used that information to damage my reputation by labeling me as crazy.

So, now, the third relationship comes into play. I began to date a woman from the same group of people. A very beautiful woman, but very very crazy. She hadn't learned the full extent of the gossip going around until we had been together. It biased her opinion of me because she holds her status within the group highly. She became more and more bitchy and mean. This woman has never had a real job in her life. She always expects other people to take care of her and everything was my responsibility, including her depressive tendencies and discomfort with the relationship. We stayed together because we had planned a trip. I had hoped that the trip would cause her to relax and we could rekindle our original feelings for each other to help save the relationship. I was really fucking wrong about that. She did everything she could to belittle me and play jealousy games. She had arrived earlier than I had and she stayed up all night drinking with another man before I arrived. She threw the matter in my face as soon as I arrived. We ended the relationship by the end of the trip. I was sick of bleeding money for a woman that only seemed to want me to feel bad about myself by constantly trying to make me miserable. I'll admit that I played my part in escalating the situation. I was unable to hold my tongue about her flaws. Really, we just began to fight without fighting. A horribly passive aggressive experience. I tried to be positive and have a good time, but she made it impossible.

Since then, I have been even more alienated from a lot of my new friends and they have been petty and childish. I'm to a point now where I'm fucking depressed about it all. I still have a lot of friends, but I'm getting older and many of them have settled down and aren't very active socially. I was excited about meeting these new outgoing people and that's all mostly fucked now.

So now, some ranting:

WHY CAN'T THESE WOMEN PLAY NICE! THEY ARE EQUALLY RESPONSIBLE FOR THE PROBLEMS IN THE RELATIONSHIPS AND REFUSE TO TAKE ANY RESPONSIBILITY. THEY ALWAYS MANIPULATE THE RELATIONSHIP BY DRIVING YOU FUCKING NUTS UNTIL YOU DO SOMETHING IN RESPONSE THAT THEY CAN USE AGAINST YOU TO PLAY THE GODDAMN VICTIM (I HAVE NEVER HIT A WOMAN BY THE WAY). IS IT SO HARD TO SIT DOWN AND TALK WITH SOMEONE OPENLY AND HONESTLY? IT'S NOT ALL MY FUCKING FAULT. FURTHER, WHY DOES EVERYONE TAKE THEIR FUCKING SIDE. YES, THEY ARE MORE VULNERABLE AND WHATNOT, BUT NOBODY EVER QUESTIONS THE MALICIOUS GOSSIP AND RUMORS THAT THEY SPREAD IN ORDER TO ASSASSINATE MY CHARACTER. SO NOW, I'M AN ASSHOLE. EVERY GODDAMN DICK THAT WANTS A SHOT AT FUCKING THEM OR ANYONE THEY KNOW WILL TAKE THEIR SIDE, AND EVERY GODDAMN WOMAN THAT LISTENS TO THEM WILL TAKE THEIR SIDE BECAUSE THEY RELATE TO THE ALL MEN ARE ASSHOLES SHTICK. BLEED MY FUCKING WALLET DRY, TREAT ME LIKE SHIT, BREAK MY HEART, AND THEN RUIN MY LIFE. FUCK THAT! ALL BECAUSE THEY HAVE SOME STORYBOOK PRINCE IN THEIR HEAD THAT WILL TELL THEM EXACTLY WHAT THEY WANT TO HEAR AND DO EVERYTHING THEY WANT THEM TO DO (WITHOUT HAVING TO ASK) AND I FALL SHORT OF MEETING THOSE LUDICROUS EXPECTATIONS. GET A GODDAMN CLUE. SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS SHIT.