Thanks for listen- ... wait, nevermind.

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Thanks for just standing there, saying "Oh..." when I feel like shit. Thanks for directing the conversations to something stupid when I'm being serious. But most of all, thanks for not letting me talk about me for ONCE when I'm with you.
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But seriously. You guys never let me talk about my problems. You think I'm all sunshines and happiness all the time. Well, guess what? I might be moving schools. I'm about to explode because of family vs. friends. My schoolwork is piling on me. Oh and my parents are getting a divorce. You try being happy with all this shit going on, not to mention having "friends" that don't even bother asking "How are you?"

I've given you chances to ask "what's up." I've sent texts and tried to start actual conversations. But every time I try to start something serious, all you do is say "Oh that sucks," and talk about stupid jokes / t.v. shows / anything else. You guys don't actually know, do you? I can hardly take it anymore. I'm not going to commit suicide or anything, no, but I just... ARGH.

I want to scream. Smash stuff. Be anywhere but here. But you don't care, right? Everytime I try to have some other feeling besides happiness, you just shut me away. Is that what I've become for you guys? Just "the happy friend?" Am I that two-dimensional?! Because every single fucking time I try to be serious, it never works. Do I have to spell out the obvious? I am a person. I have feelings.

I don't know whether to call you friends or just the people I hang out with, 'cause I can't turn to you guys anymore. I'm gonna float by around you from now on, 'cause obviously you're not letting me get anywhere.

For you reading this, I honestly thank you for reading my rant. At least someone will "listen." (: